2.28.2007

In His Time

It has been over a month since Janice and I moved back to L.A., but it felt like three months for me. Especially for the last few days, most of the things on my " To Do" list have been done. Day goes by real fast, yet I felt I done nothing and it is not a good feeling.
One thing I picked up since I moved back is Wednesday's prayer meeting at church. So far I had learned how to 禱讀, how to speak in tongue, and how to receive Holy Spirit. It makes my bible reading and spiritual understanding a lot easier. Tonight, as I was sharing my thoughts I realized that God wants me to take little moment and be quiet in front of him. In the mist of moving, quitting jobs, looking for new job, and baby is coming, he is still working his magic. I have to admit that it is harder for me not to do anything than do a lot of things. I think it is also strange feeling that I know He is speaking to me, but I am not sure if I have received the message right. I guess in time things will be revealed and hopefully my spiritual sense will be more developed.
I am real bummed that my interview was scheduled for tomorrow just got pushed back, the question in my mind is " what are you trying to tell me?". Strange thing is I am not worried about getting a job (even though I should be)............

14 comments:

joy4love said...

Let's not worry about anything, but in all things, rest and wait for Him. You're doing great buddy-- it's hard time you're going through right now. I know however, that you will reap fruits of joy though.

Sydney said...

finally you blogged. "pray-read" or "Dou-Doooo" is really helpful! I have faith in God that He will bring you into the land of abundance!

sydney Ah-e

aiwen said...

Boy, you must be loaded! If my husband's out of a job, I'd panic and have a breakdown! We will not survive for more than 6 months! Then God must be telling us to drop dead!

Have you ever thought about those homeless people who also believe in God? Did God let them become homeless and told them to live in cardboard boxes?? I know, I know, you're going to tell me that God has his ways...... and since you're not God, you don't know, right?

Anonymous said...

hey bud... don't worry so much about everything... everything tends to work themselves out at the end.

Just go with the flow!

Will.i.am said...

To Joy:
I am eagerly await my fruit of joy to come!

To Syd:
hehe, thanks for the encouragement. I hope I am not setting up a bad example of staying home and do nothing.

To Han:
thanks man, I will remember to go with the flow. Lets flow together once you moved to L.A.

Will.i.am said...

To Aiwen:
haha, you always have interesting questions. You should ask God those questions in your prayer, because you will not be satisfy with any answers from this earth. These scripture came to my mind, I hope it will help..........
耶和華說、我知道我向你們所懷的意念、是賜平安的意念、不是降災禍的意念、要叫你們末後有指望。 – 耶 29:11
I dont think God will ever ask anyone to Drop Dead for no reason, although it happened in the old testament.
and yes, I did think about the homeless question and no, God did not make them homeless and you know God did not. Then the question become how come God let people suffer like homeless or in any type of situation. But the real question is " would you still believe in God if you become homeless one day?" (the answer is in the book of Job).

aiwen said...

You always answer my question with another question!

God has always been good to me and my family, and I've always believed in God! I just don't think he's as all mighty. Because there are just problems he cannot solve or cannot get to! Sort of like a good doctor...... even if he can cure 99 out of a hundred, there's one he left behind!

Looking at all the terrible things that happen to good people, and I just can't stop wondering...... Maybe there is no answer! The truth is right infront of our eyes. There are flaws in all creations. Many tries to find excuses for God. But no one can because they're not God!

And if I was the one who's suffering, I would still believe in him. Unless I lose hope!

Will.i.am said...

To Aiwen:

If God is not all mighty, why you still believe in him? I would ditch him long time ago.....
I think our understanding of God is not all the same, and I don't think anyone should. That's why God is so great if you know what I mean.
Don't lose hope and I am sure one day God will show you that he is all mighty and he has all the answer to your question as he does in mine.

aiwen said...

Like I said, even the world's greatest doctors can't promise not to lose a patient! If he's really that all mighty, why can't he make the whole world believes in him? Why are there different religions? I believe in him because he's been good to me, but what about the brothers and sisters he left behind? famines? poverty? disease? Don't tell me they're all meant to be!

Will.i.am said...

To Aiwen:
The world's greatest doctors can't promise not to lose a patient, but we are not talking about doctors. If God is equivalent to human doctor, I suggest you should stop believe the God you described.
I used to ask the same qestions as you, and all the answers are in the bible. If you you really care and want to find the answers, I suggest you start to read your bible. But I think the problem is all in your head and your heart is not open to God.

I am not here to argue about how great my God is, because I know he is. It is pointless to define God's ability and limit or what not.

When God create man & woman, he created us in his image (please refer to Genesis). One of the charactor and gift is free will. God given us free will so people can believe whatever we choose to believe. Some people never heard of gospel and some people choose not to believe in Him. Instead of making us like a robot, God given us grace with free will. Would you like Austin to love you because you told him so, or becasue of he choose to?
I don't know anyone who God has left behind, most people choose not to follow God, God didn't left them behind if that is what you mean by " left behind". Jesus come to this earth to teach us how to love and he has given us the way to heaven, but he is never here to give us this worldly things. famine, poverty and disease are this worldly things.
God will bless who loves him but even those who loves him and walk his way will encounter suffer of this world. Like Jeff Ma, why do you think God takes him away so early?
hehe, try not to focus on thing in this world, because when you leave, nothing is going to matter. Just think beyond what you can see, you will understand our God is awesome God. He is all perfect in His way, it is us that is impure and wicked.

Anonymous said...

威爺

我最近眼睛痛 可以換成中文版的媽
你要好好練習中文拉 哈哈阿哈哈哈

不過 真的 都在神的時間表當中
你是一個依靠神的弟兄 相信
神會大大的祝福你所有的事情

給你愛心 智慧當一個好爸爸
一個願意遵行神給你話語的爸爸
好好教養你的孩子 加油加油

有賢慧的威嫂在你的身邊 安拉
哈阿哈哈 神會因此更大祝福在你們的家庭

看完你的英文 我真的可以去修博士班
眼睛很痛耶

aiwen said...

You're lucky that you have Janice! Because if you fall in love with a non-Christian, then you'd be in trouble! You believe in what you want to believe and let me believe in mine! Even though Christianity is the largest religion in the world, the other 67% of the world's population thinks otherwise! My God is in my heart and in my mind who tells me to love and to give!

That's why I stopped going to church after I started high school! I found at church that people rather give to the church instead of giving to charity, they rather spend time discussing how mighty God instead of spend time to recycle (you know, for our earth) ....... parents pray for their kids getting into ivy league...... the unemployed pray to land a job yet complains about the job that they've landed...... the youth cruise around in their sports car trying to impress girls or discuss what pretty outfit they saw at the mall...... But I don't have money for ivy league (and not smart enough for scholarships), I don't have a car, and I shop at garage sales or surplus stores, so I rather spend more time in school's extracurricular activities and believes that I can love and give without going to church!

I'm not as noble and rely mostly on worldly things...... my son, my family, enough money to live, the sun, the earth, the rain...... Heaven and reincarnation are just beyond me!

So as far as for me, I love all I can, give all I can (I admit that I don't give enough but will try harder), persue good, forgive evil, thank my God everyday for the worldly things!

Your truth is within the Bible, my truth is within myself. But I believe the truth could be found in many other places. Think about those uncivilized (like the people in "God Must be Crazy" movie) who can't read. And the truth of the Native American Indians is within nature.

There's a good website with interesting articles: www.religioustolerance.org. The Pope and the Roman Catholic Church in their declaration implied that all other Christian denominations are not considered proper and suffer from defects. And other religions are considered "deficient". It is purely an arrogant statement and disprespect other religions!

The following is statement of the Religious Tolerance website:
- In the inherent worth of every person. People are worthy of respect, support, and caring simply because they are human.
- In working towards a culture that is relatively free of discrimination on the basis of gender, race, sexual orientation, national origin, degree of ability, age, etc.
- In the sanctity of the human person. We oppose the use of torture and cruel or unusual punishment including the death penalty.
- In the importance of democracy within religious, political and other structures.
- In the separation of church and state; and the freedoms of speech, association, and expression.
- That the systems of truth in the field of morals, ethics, and religious belief that we have studied are not absolute: they vary by culture, by religion, and over time.
- In the generally positive influence that most religions have had on their followers and on society.
- In the importance of individual believers determining evil influences and policies within their chosen faith group, and advocate for their correction.
- In the importance of education. We believe that people are not truly educated unless they have studied at least the world's major religions and ethical systems. They need to learn of the good and bad impacts they have had on society.

...... which is pretty much what I'm all about!

Happy reading!

Will.i.am said...

To Aiwen:

I definitly repsect your religion and believe. I feel I dont know you enough to have any type of conclusion about you or what your believes. I just expressed mine, and hope you understand.
There is only one truth in this universe, and it does not come from any type of religion or person. The truth will not change even you dont belive it. it is like the law of gravity; no religion or one person defines it, it is there and we can decribe it and observe, and the gravity does not change even if you dont belive it. So God is like that in his own way. You believe what you believe but it is not the universal truth I was talking about. because no one or religion can create the truth. We as human change and grow all the time, and our belief change as our time progress on this earth. What I believe is totally differ from 5 years ago, and when I looked back. My thoughts and believes are real childlish, but God's truth remained.
You are right, I am real lucky that janice is a christian. But I think even if I fall in love with a non-christian, God still have his way to show me his mercy and love.
I am not try to change your belive or religion or anything. I think you are a strong person who is real smart that can figure things out on your own. I think you should try to look beyond christianity, pope, or what people thinks & people does. Focus just on God, nothing else......

Anonymous said...

感謝神!
在祂的時間裡 我們盡都平安穩妥
為你跟Janice 代禱也獻上感恩
我們在祂的手中
我們就有了確據!!!